No matter what my body may say.

Have spent most of the last 48 hours sleeping. Am heading back to bed very soon. There will be a From Molly's Kitchen posted tomorrow (I hope) - my brain is currently wrapped in wool, and I can't seem to be very coherent.

More later.
Yep, came home from Harpers with a cold. Thank you, whoever brought it, so kind. :p Colds mess up my intestines, so it has NOT been a fun week, and I just gave up last night. Not driving into work an hour to work 2.5 hours, spend most of it in the bathroom, and then drive an hour home. No. Thank god for FMLA and an understanding boss.

So today is kind of a slow day. I have a bit I want to do, but a lot of it involves sitting on the couch and writing.

The List:

- Put away the laundry in the living room
- Do 2 more loads in the basement
- Put away the dry dishes
- Make lasagna

- Balance the checkbook (ugh)
- Finish the outline for Pain
- Write at least 2k on Pain
- Go to class at 5

Ugh. It looks monsterous from here. *sigh*
And I have a sinus migraine building. Oh joy.

I have approximately 18 hours of sick time left this year, I feel like a bus has hit me, and my head is pounding. But I'm in at work. For how long is anyone's guess.

Right now, I'm just focusing on getting to my first break, at 11 am. I start on the phones at 9 am.

If I can make it to 11 am, I might actually last a bit longer than I'm thinking at the moment. We'll see.

*sigh* Thursday can't come soon enough. I need my Remicade.
It is 10:14 pm, and I am eating toast. Other than a can of cola, this is the only thing I have eaten today. I am currently sitting in the dark in the living room, with the Red Sox game I dvr'd earlier on the TV and trying to decide if I'm actually going to attempt to write. I slept most of the day. I really need to try and go into work tomorrow, as I have a doctor's appointment. However, if this migraine doesn't release it's grip, I'll be back in bed likely.

This is what stress does to me - it makes my body go haywire. And then I catch whatever comes around. And it takes me forever to kick it.

I'm so tired of being sick. I wish some of the people I work with would understand that.
I have cough medicine with codeine. Going to finally get some sleep now.
I'm at work today - the ears no longer hurt, except for random pains that shoot through, and I can sort of control the hacking, so I'm back. If I could, I'd take one more day - but I don't want to push my luck. I might put in for VTO though.

And I have to pass on a tip from my mother, that I finally tried last night and it worked amazingly well. It sounds really bizarre, but it works. If you're congested, take Vicks Vaporub and put it on the soles of your feet right before bed, then put on a pair of clean white cotton socks. You'll be able to breathe all night.

I know, it sounds really weird, but it works.

More later.

Edit: VTO achieved! Going home to do laundry and clean a bit - and send some more queries.
I give up. It's snowing again, and I've already been out to shovel. My ears are still very sore, although not as sore as yesterday. I have hopes of going back to work tomorrow, although my chest is so full of crap that it hurts to just breathe. Took me nearly an hour (I took it very slow) to shovel the driveway (thank goodness it's not coming down in buckets - I just checked and I don't have to go out again yet).

So I'm taking the day off. I'm going to curl up on the couch in the silence with my new cookbook, the magazines that came in over the weekend, and the kitties, and drink tea and read. That's it. I might poke at some writing, but I'm not planning on it. I should do some housework, but again, I'm not planning on it.

I just feel like crap. So therefore, I refuse.
Because I'm coming up with stuff to try and work on today. I need to stay upright so I don't strangle on my own snot while my decongestant starts trying to work. (And isn't THAT a lovely image?)

So, my goals for today:

1. 1 crit for DII
2. Look up agents to sub Dreams to
3. Troll through some markets and maybe try to write a short to spec.

That's pretty much it - I might do more, but we'll see.

I'm not that motivated (see above), but if I get into something, who knows what could happen?
The Good News: No strep throat. Thank gods.

The Bad News: A double ear infection and a (everyone say it with me!) raging sinus infection. Apparently that's the only type I get. Me and my Z-pak were sent home with orders to rest.

My ears hurt enough that I can't wear headphones, so no WoW. Also no work. I have to go out to my folks' house tonight to feed kitties, and that's it. I got zero sleep last night, so I'm calling in to work tomorrow. Today, the plan is to sit on my couch, watch the Red Sox, blow my nose repeatedly, maybe work on a new project that came to me last night, blow my nose some more, eat popsicles, drink tea, go to Nottingham, and crash on the couch tonight.

The thrilling life of a writer.

vg_ford: (daniel die)
( Mar. 3rd, 2009 02:06 pm)
Okay, week from hell can end now, universe. I'm done already, and it's only Tuesday.

Shall we count the ways?

1. Snowpocalypse on Monday, resulting in school closures, which resulted in 3/4 of our staff not coming into work. I understand that someone's gotta stay home with the kids, but it made for a LOOOONGGG day.

2. PMS. Need we say more?

3. Treatment looming. Let's not go there.

4. One of our switchboards malfunctioned this morning, resulting in all their calls this morning coming to our site instead. Red lit from 8:30 am to noon. Loads of fun.

5. Threatening sore throat became firethroat with a vengence. Sucks when you can't get up to get a drink. Thank gods for my thermos.

6. Three Fracking Degrees tonight. Nuff said.

I was braindead last night from the snow day (I ended up working OT to help out) so I did nothing last night but WoW. I needed to slaughter pixels. Of course, having time get away from me and gaming until midnight was SO not smart.

*sigh* I'm declaring a gaming moritorium until Sunday. I have too much else to do. Besides, I already soloed DeadMines. :D

Tonight, I'm curling up in bed under the electric blanket and studying for my final tomorrow. And drinking tea. With honey. And hoping to god I don't have strep.


(I promise, no more whining this week.)
[ profile] argus7hills' flu found me today. Not in at work, for obvious reasons. Slept until 12:45 pm and only got up because my paper is due today. No, I haven't started working on it yet - I'm still trying to clear the brain goo (thanks, Pook!) from my head. I'm hoping the tea will start working soon.

And Philip Jose Farmer died yesterday. Another giant of SF.

Someday, I will look around, and all the people who first inspired me to write will be gone. And that, my friends, is a very, very depressing thought.
Comment #1: I do not have children, and the way it looks, probably won't.

Comment #2: This is in no way to say that anyone I know or anyone who reads this who has children should think that I am casting aspersions on how they raise their children.

That being said, I've been reading the comments in the immunization post over at [ profile] matociquala's blog, and wondering what some folks are thinking. Yes, I know it's a very polarizing issue, and what I'm going to say is probably going to irritate some folks. But it's my blog and last time I checked, it was a free country.

I was immunized for everything that was out when I was a child. I had chicken pox TWICE, and the second time really sucked. Ever have an itch on the inside of your eyelids? How about in your lungs? Yeah, true suckage.

If [ profile] argus7hills and I have children, they will be immunized. Not just to protect them, but to help protect the other people they come into contact with. That's what herd immunity is - just as with everything else in a herd, everyone has to contribute for it to work.

That being said, I do not get a flu vaccine every year. No, I'm not a hypocrite, and here's why: the last two flu vaccines I got knocked me out for 2 and 4 weeks, respectively. I have a compromised immune system as it is (as most of my readers know), and after discussing it with all my doctors (I have a team, it's one of the joys of having a chronic illness), it was decided that continuing to get the flu vaccine would not be conducive to my health.


If I get the flu, I call in sick to work. I then call my doctors and get the medications I need to beat the disease back, and I make sure that I do everything I can to minimize my exposure to others.

My job only allows me six sick days a year - after that, I need a doctor's note to call in sick. Most people I know whine about that - to me, it makes sense. I've never had an issue calling my doctor and asking for a note to be faxed, whether or not I've actually gone in to see them. Then again, my doctors know exactly what I'm dealing with.

My point? I'm not sure I have one, other than a WTF? reaction to the anti-vaccine arguments I've seen thrown around. I haven't seen any concrete information that tells me that vaccines are bad (and please, don't send me anything on the MMR=autism stuff; I've seen it, it's very bad science and it's been disproven multiple times), and I dunno - it just seems like a bad decision, one that's not only affecting your kids, but everyone you come into contact with.

Just my .02.
I haz them. Bleah.

Luckily, I haz Dayquil as well. Hopefully it will help me make it through the day. (Although it took me four tries to get that sentence right - hope is fading...)

Today we learn more about loans. No phone calls, unless queues are high. Considering tonight is the holiday party and the ENTIRE SITE is here as of 8:30 am EST, I doubt there will be high queues. Which means doublejacking. I'll try and stay awake. I have caffiene, so there's a chance.

I had to pull my winter boots out today, as we hit the high of 34 degrees F at 6 am EST today. The temperature is steadily dropping, and we have sleet and freezing rain falling. It MAY turn to snow tomorrow. Joy of joys. Welcome to winter in New Hampshire.


Today, I have some modest plans:

1. Stay awake throughout work
2. Unpack my desk (we moved cubes again. I have a HUGE monitor now!)
3. Christmas cards after work (while I'm waiting for the mad rush to leave)
4. Three Ships for lunch

Hope you guys are doing well!
Sorry to everyone that I just up and left online last night - I was suddenly amazingly nauseous, and the grumbling headache that had been threatening most of the day reared up and squashed me. Two Nyquil, a Vicodan and about 18 hours of sleep later, the headache has been beaten back and I've eaten two slices of pizza.

The house is QUIET. There is no music. No TV. All the cats are asleep, and the only real sounds are my keyboard and the heater as it cycles on and off. It's blissful.

I'm going to make another pot of tea (I've had one pot, I need one more to smack down this headache for good, I think) and fold laundry. Then I'm going to work on my schoolwork. I'll pop into FM Chat and DII Chat to see if anyone's around.

But I'm keeping everything else off. I'm enjoying the quiet.
Which means weigh-in!

Starting weight: 291 lbs.
Current weight: 286.6 lbs
Change: 4.4 lbs

Slowly but surely, the weight is coming off. I really think breakfast is making a HUGE difference - I'm not hungry at 9 am anymore, so I'm not snacking on salty stuff. And the lessening of soda helps too.

I'm back at work, with a jug of orange-pineapple juice and lots of cold meds and tea. I did manage to bring some Lean Pockets and pomegranite seeds for lunch/dinner, so I don't have to buy anything. Go me!

And yes, I think it's the flu. I had a fever most of yesterday - it's broken today, but I feel like I've been beaten like a harp seal. Thanks for all the well-wishes.

Woke up achy, feverish and hacking, so called in. Then back to bed until almost noon. Now I'm up and curled up on the couch with tea, my computer, and my legal homework. Going to alternate legal research homework with edits. Hoping to be able to concentrate.

My fever is down a bit, but I'm still doing the alternating chills/hot flashes and have NO interest in food. I've got raviolis baking - butternut squash ravioli, which was the only thing that even remotely appealed to me in the freezer. If I feel this crappy tomorrow, I'm calling in again and going to the clinic, because I need to be able to function.

I know it's stress. I currently loathe my job (shocking, I know), and until I can get out from under the shadow of my current manager (who is most of the reason I loathe my job), I will continue to be stressed. Also, still being in a division that's on a deathwatch is not fun either. November 24. I just have to make it to November 24.

This is getting very old. I'm going to do the BRAT diet (Bananas, Rice, Applesauce, Toast) for the next couple of days, to give my system a break and see if that helps. If not, I'm heading back to my GI and trying something else.

I know what this is - it's a reaction to stress. I don't like my boss at work, so that's stress. I don't like the atmosphere at work, so that's stress. I'm still trying to finish Seasons, which is uber-stress.

So, anyone got any good stress remedies? *sigh* I'm going to give my system a rest, and I'm going to make a concious effort to slow down and remember to take care of myself.

Today, I am taking it easy. I'm working on fixing my outline for Seasons, doing dishes, replanting some of my plants and putting laundry away.

And pondering.
So, I finally went to the doctor's today. The verdict is:

A raging sinus infection with aspirations of becoming walking pneumonia.

I now rattle when I walk from all the medications. I have two inhalers, an antibiotic and a nasal spray. Hopefully this will take care of everything and I can get on with life.


Now to write - she wanted me to take tomorrow off, but I can't. I'm taking it easy this weekend, though - the law has been laid down, and I must comply. :p

Time to write more.
vg_ford: (sadness)
( Mar. 31st, 2008 08:29 am)
I hate being sick.

Hopefully I can make it through the work day. Oh, did I mention that we have OT today?

Shoot me now, please.

Edit 1: I have made it to lunch without vomiting on my cubemate or killing a caller. I count that as a victory. My next goal is to make to 3 pm (my next break).

Edit 2: Still haven't vomited or killed anyone. I might make it until 8 pm.

Stupid OT.
*sigh* I should have known. Hubby was home sick last night, and now my head is aching, my throat hurts and my eyes are icky. Bleah. I swear, someone sneezes on the other side of the building and I get sick. The joys of a compromised immune system.

However, I've dropped 3.4 lbs since last week! Go me!

Signed up for the gym yesterday, walked 35 minutes on the treadmill. Shows me just how out of shape I am. And Monday?

Monday, I get to meet my new personal trainer for the first time.

AT 6 AM.



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