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argus7hills and I found out today that I wasn't pregnant after all. This isn't a bad thing, and we found out that nothing else was wrong (a baby wouldn't have been a bad thing either, but at least it wasn't diabetes or another major health problem), but it's gotten me thinking about a lot of things in my life, and I feel the need to share these thoughts.
A baby would have been a whole new chapter in our life. (I know, big shocker, huh?) I was lying in bed this morning, waiting for the doctor to call with the test results and wondering where the hell we were going to put baby stuff if I really was pregnant. I mean, I'm a pack rat. I fully admit to this, and I know I need help. Hell, I was looking through my drawers the other day and finding clothing that I haven't worn since high school. (to put that in perspective, my 10-year college reunion is next year, and I was on a 5-year program) Then I went grocery shopping, and while putting away my groceries, found that I couldn't fit anything more into my freezer. Why? Because there was still food in there that had moved with us the last time. TWO YEARS AGO. So I cleaned out the freezer, and thus my spring cleaning begins.
I'm almost 32 years old, and yet, I really don't know if I'm old enough to have a baby. I still stay up too late, drink too much on occasion, and bounce checks once in a while. I haven't got nearly enough money put away for an emergency, I've never been overseas and the apartment is too small for more than the five of us (argus7hills, me and the three kittens).
And yet, we would have adapted. We would have moved stuff around, done a thorough purge and found the room. Maybe I'm more ready than I thought.
Several upsides of not being pregnant:
1. I can drink the Yuengling thatcaitlindancer brought me back from NJ on St. Patty's day!
2. I can party at RavenCon and not worry about it.
3. Not being 7 months pregnant at Pennsic.
4. More time to practice with the hubby. :D
Okay, philosophical stuff done.
argus7hills and I found out today that I wasn't pregnant after all. This isn't a bad thing, and we found out that nothing else was wrong (a baby wouldn't have been a bad thing either, but at least it wasn't diabetes or another major health problem), but it's gotten me thinking about a lot of things in my life, and I feel the need to share these thoughts.A baby would have been a whole new chapter in our life. (I know, big shocker, huh?) I was lying in bed this morning, waiting for the doctor to call with the test results and wondering where the hell we were going to put baby stuff if I really was pregnant. I mean, I'm a pack rat. I fully admit to this, and I know I need help. Hell, I was looking through my drawers the other day and finding clothing that I haven't worn since high school. (to put that in perspective, my 10-year college reunion is next year, and I was on a 5-year program) Then I went grocery shopping, and while putting away my groceries, found that I couldn't fit anything more into my freezer. Why? Because there was still food in there that had moved with us the last time. TWO YEARS AGO. So I cleaned out the freezer, and thus my spring cleaning begins.
I'm almost 32 years old, and yet, I really don't know if I'm old enough to have a baby. I still stay up too late, drink too much on occasion, and bounce checks once in a while. I haven't got nearly enough money put away for an emergency, I've never been overseas and the apartment is too small for more than the five of us (
argus7hills, me and the three kittens).And yet, we would have adapted. We would have moved stuff around, done a thorough purge and found the room. Maybe I'm more ready than I thought.
Several upsides of not being pregnant:
1. I can drink the Yuengling that
caitlindancer brought me back from NJ on St. Patty's day!2. I can party at RavenCon and not worry about it.
3. Not being 7 months pregnant at Pennsic.
4. More time to practice with the hubby. :D
Okay, philosophical stuff done.
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