(personal/food) Day One: It begins.

I had a very interesting conversation with a friend of mine yesterday at the household Michaelmas. Her 11-yr-old daughter had been diagnosed with a similar disease to mine in the past year, and we were discussing the challenges of living with Crohn's and similar disorders. She said one thing to me that I've been saying but not doing: I'd been saying that I constantly come up with more things I "need to do" in life, and she said,

"You need to take care of you first."

She's right. If I don't take care of myself first, then the rest of the "I need to do"s don't matter. So I'm going to try, once again, to remember this.

I started last night - I came home from Michaelmas and did things that made it easier for me this morning - I made dinner for tonight (since I'm working late today), packed lunches for Argus and I, put my work clothes in my gym bag and, most importantly, went to bed at 11 pm. And didn't stress that I didn't write.

Because I can't do it all. I'm not Supergirl. I'm Val, and Val needs to learn to chill out and not take on the world all day, every day.

I weighed myself this morning, and will be continuing to do so every day. This week, I'm going to go to the gym Monday, Wednesday and Friday, and I'm going to weigh myself every Wednesday morning (today is my baseline weight). I'm doing my goals one week at a time, so I don't stress myself out even more.

Starting Weight: 291 lbs.
Weight this Morning: 291 lbs.
Goal Weight: 261.9 lbs.
Goal Deadline: April 1, 2009

That's a pound a week, roughly. I'm more concerned with being healthy and getting into good habits, but if I don't have a deadline, I don't do anything.

Wish me luck!