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This is another bit of navel-gazing. If that bores you, move along. :)
I have realized two things about myself:
1. I am ambitious. I have a lot of dreams that I want to accomplish. Big dreams. Change the world dreams. I even have the plans to get there and accomplish said dreams. I want to write and publish a ton of books. I want to host a successful monthly podcast. I want to have a sparkling house. I want to lose 100 lbs.
However.
2. I am lazy. Horribly, horribly lazy. It's so much easier to eat junk food and play on the computer, rather than eat healthy and exercise. It's so much easier to play WoW rather than write or learn how to use my mixer board. It's easier to surf the Web than read books and write reviews, or go out and promote. It's easier to ignore housework than do it.
Every month or so (usually when I get my Better Homes and Gardens magazine and get fired up), I start making plans. And then I start making lists. Long lists. And then I get so overwhelmed by the length of the list that I drop it after a day or two and go back to my old ways.
Part of it, I think, is because in many ways I am a typical Aries - I'm gung-ho but ADD (ooh, look, shiny!) about just about everything. And so I do everything 110% - and get in way over my head. Obviously, I need to learn to pace myself.
So what to do?
I am list-driven. So, I start by making lists.
Personal:
1. I want to lose 100 lbs.
At a rate of 1-2 lbs a week, that's 2 years (roughly). 100 lbs would put me under 200 lbs (scary, huh? I can't believe how much I weigh at the moment) and back to a healthier weight. It would also help my other health problems come back under control. And 1-2 lbs a week is what the experts recommend as healthy weight loss.
2. I want to have a clean, organized house.
We have a lovely 3-bedroom duplex that honestly, I don't keep up as well as I should. I'm a slob. But I should be able to keep it clean enough that I'm not embarrassed to have people over.
3. I want to get into a different field, where I don't have to do customer service quite as much as I'm doing now.
This one is actually in process, since I've gone back to school. I just have to keep at it.
4. I want to pay my credit cards off.
Within 1 year, I want these PAID OFF. PAID OFF. Yes, they're both under $2k, but I don't care. I want them gone.
Writing:
1. I want an agent.
I'm getting to the point where I can't function anymore without one. However, I have to have a book to query, which leads me to...
2. I want to write the Dreams series.
I love this concept, and the more I write/dream about it, the more I enjoy it. I just have to write it.
3. I want to have a podcast.
I have the mixer board. I have the microphone. Everything is still in the box. *sigh* I just need to overcome my fear of screwing it up and go for it.
4. I want to promote more.
I need to get to more cons. I need to look and see what cons are in my area. And then I need to go to them.
5. I want to update my website.
I know I want something different (see the ADD) but I'm not sure what. Again, I have to do my research.
Obligations:
1. Elements of Fantasy
I have to get this finished. Have to. Have to.
2. Last Rites
I need to start the outlining for this (3rd book in the Horseman series). It's due next August.
3. Edgewood series
I need to start figuring this one out as well. 3 books.
4. DII Crits
2 per month, dammit! How hard can it be?
So I look at all of this, and go, "Oh man, I'll have to stop sleeping! And this doesn't include spending time with my husband, or sewing, or just hanging out with friends, or WoW, or..." and decide it's just not worth it anymore. Yeah, you get the idea.
MODERATION. Val needs to learn this.
So let's break it down a bit. Let's look at 1 week. Really, none of these are huge changes, in and of themselves. It's just all together that they become insurmountable.
Firstly, I need to focus on my health. I know I do. So what can I do to start being more healthy?
1. Exercise.
2. Cut out the soda.
3. Brown bag my lunch every day.
4. Cook healthy dinners every night, rather than stop for fast food or order out.
5. EAT BREAKFAST!!!!
What about the house?
1. Pick up after myself when I take something out.
2. Clean out one room a week.
3. Find an organizational system that works.
Bills?
1. Stick to my budget.
2. Work on methods of cutting unnecessary expenses from my life without sacrificing any quality of life.
Writing?
1. Carve out time every day to write, even if it's just on my lunch break at work.
2. Carry a notebook everywhere, so when I have some downtime, I can jot down notes.
Promoting?
1. Familiarize myself with the mixer board and paraphernalia.
2.
Obligations?
1. Set aside time each week to work on crits for DII and Writer's Group.
Broken down like that, it's not as big. I just have to make small changes and not overwhelm myself.
So here are my goals for the remainder of this month.
Health:
1. Eat breakfast every morning.
House:
1. Pick up after myself when I finish something.
Writing:
1. Carry a notebook everywhere I go.
Obligations:
1. Set aside 1 hour every other night to do either a crit or a chapter edit.
Promoting:
1. Set up the mixer board this weekend and mess around with it.
Bills:
1. Stick to my budget.
*deep breath*
I can do this. Just baby steps. Seriously. Just baby steps.
I have realized two things about myself:
1. I am ambitious. I have a lot of dreams that I want to accomplish. Big dreams. Change the world dreams. I even have the plans to get there and accomplish said dreams. I want to write and publish a ton of books. I want to host a successful monthly podcast. I want to have a sparkling house. I want to lose 100 lbs.
However.
2. I am lazy. Horribly, horribly lazy. It's so much easier to eat junk food and play on the computer, rather than eat healthy and exercise. It's so much easier to play WoW rather than write or learn how to use my mixer board. It's easier to surf the Web than read books and write reviews, or go out and promote. It's easier to ignore housework than do it.
Every month or so (usually when I get my Better Homes and Gardens magazine and get fired up), I start making plans. And then I start making lists. Long lists. And then I get so overwhelmed by the length of the list that I drop it after a day or two and go back to my old ways.
Part of it, I think, is because in many ways I am a typical Aries - I'm gung-ho but ADD (ooh, look, shiny!) about just about everything. And so I do everything 110% - and get in way over my head. Obviously, I need to learn to pace myself.
So what to do?
I am list-driven. So, I start by making lists.
Personal:
1. I want to lose 100 lbs.
At a rate of 1-2 lbs a week, that's 2 years (roughly). 100 lbs would put me under 200 lbs (scary, huh? I can't believe how much I weigh at the moment) and back to a healthier weight. It would also help my other health problems come back under control. And 1-2 lbs a week is what the experts recommend as healthy weight loss.
2. I want to have a clean, organized house.
We have a lovely 3-bedroom duplex that honestly, I don't keep up as well as I should. I'm a slob. But I should be able to keep it clean enough that I'm not embarrassed to have people over.
3. I want to get into a different field, where I don't have to do customer service quite as much as I'm doing now.
This one is actually in process, since I've gone back to school. I just have to keep at it.
4. I want to pay my credit cards off.
Within 1 year, I want these PAID OFF. PAID OFF. Yes, they're both under $2k, but I don't care. I want them gone.
Writing:
1. I want an agent.
I'm getting to the point where I can't function anymore without one. However, I have to have a book to query, which leads me to...
2. I want to write the Dreams series.
I love this concept, and the more I write/dream about it, the more I enjoy it. I just have to write it.
3. I want to have a podcast.
I have the mixer board. I have the microphone. Everything is still in the box. *sigh* I just need to overcome my fear of screwing it up and go for it.
4. I want to promote more.
I need to get to more cons. I need to look and see what cons are in my area. And then I need to go to them.
5. I want to update my website.
I know I want something different (see the ADD) but I'm not sure what. Again, I have to do my research.
Obligations:
1. Elements of Fantasy
I have to get this finished. Have to. Have to.
2. Last Rites
I need to start the outlining for this (3rd book in the Horseman series). It's due next August.
3. Edgewood series
I need to start figuring this one out as well. 3 books.
4. DII Crits
2 per month, dammit! How hard can it be?
So I look at all of this, and go, "Oh man, I'll have to stop sleeping! And this doesn't include spending time with my husband, or sewing, or just hanging out with friends, or WoW, or..." and decide it's just not worth it anymore. Yeah, you get the idea.
MODERATION. Val needs to learn this.
So let's break it down a bit. Let's look at 1 week. Really, none of these are huge changes, in and of themselves. It's just all together that they become insurmountable.
Firstly, I need to focus on my health. I know I do. So what can I do to start being more healthy?
1. Exercise.
2. Cut out the soda.
3. Brown bag my lunch every day.
4. Cook healthy dinners every night, rather than stop for fast food or order out.
5. EAT BREAKFAST!!!!
What about the house?
1. Pick up after myself when I take something out.
2. Clean out one room a week.
3. Find an organizational system that works.
Bills?
1. Stick to my budget.
2. Work on methods of cutting unnecessary expenses from my life without sacrificing any quality of life.
Writing?
1. Carve out time every day to write, even if it's just on my lunch break at work.
2. Carry a notebook everywhere, so when I have some downtime, I can jot down notes.
Promoting?
1. Familiarize myself with the mixer board and paraphernalia.
2.
Obligations?
1. Set aside time each week to work on crits for DII and Writer's Group.
Broken down like that, it's not as big. I just have to make small changes and not overwhelm myself.
So here are my goals for the remainder of this month.
Health:
1. Eat breakfast every morning.
House:
1. Pick up after myself when I finish something.
Writing:
1. Carry a notebook everywhere I go.
Obligations:
1. Set aside 1 hour every other night to do either a crit or a chapter edit.
Promoting:
1. Set up the mixer board this weekend and mess around with it.
Bills:
1. Stick to my budget.
*deep breath*
I can do this. Just baby steps. Seriously. Just baby steps.
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